Random thoughts at midnight.

My thoughts are always interesting when I wake up to pee and can't fall back to sleep. I lay there writing inside my head for hours hoping to just fall back to sleep. I promise myself I will remember and write the next day....obviosuly that doesn't happen. Except, except today. Here I am, open laptop, iced coffee, the hum of the baby's noise machine through the monitor. Last night I couldn't get over all the hate in the world, over what? Vaccines, masks and lockdowns...why? What happened to freedom and personal choices? Since when did we go around bragging about our medical history? I share a lot on social media, I'm not always nice about it. I only share in hopes some of my friends will research what I share. I never expect anyone to change their beliefs just off what I post, never. I do have hopes that it will make them curious enough, curious enough to research. I also started thinking about how many times in the last five months some stranger on the internet has wished death upon me or my family. Why you wonder, well all because I don't believe in vaccination. I know vaccines do not equal health, they just don't. Myself and my kids, among thousands of other unvaccinated humans, are living proof of that. So we can disagree and not want the other person to die. I speak out about vaccine injuries because I never, NEVER, want something to happen to another human. I wouldn't want someone to come to me after and say "I wish you would have spoke out, I wish you would have warned me". So I speak out, I post stuff on social media. I get so many hateful comments that I just delete. I used to try to respond but I realized that isn't the energy I want in my life. I don't have time for hate. I want 2019 back. I want freedom. I want maskless schools. I want to walk through a store and see you smile back at me. There is no need for vaccination bracelets, that is such bullshit. Nobody cares if you are vaccinated, NOBODY!! Nobody cares if you voted either but for some reason that sticker is still a thing. So let's try to love each other more than we judge each other. Get the vaccine if you want, but don't look down on those that don't. Wear a mask if you want but know those that don't aren't selfish, and respect their right to breathe easily. I am all for doing what makes you feel safe. So wear a mask or two, get vaccinated, stay home....whatever makes you happy. For me, I will not wear a mask, or take a vaccine, and I'm certainly not staying home. It's been a year, if there was a pandemic it's over now. Lets get outside, lets start living again. Go hug your friends and family. Have that party to celebrate life.

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